It isn’t easy being Ki-llmonger. Michael B. Jordan opened up about the toll playing the villain in “Black Panther” took on his mental health. Jordan, 31, revealed he sought professional help after filming wrapped.
“I went to therapy, I started talking to people, starting unpacking a little bit,” he said. Jordan discussed his process for getting into character Tuesday in conversation with Oprah Winfrey at the taping of her “SuperSoul Conversations” TV special. “I was by myself, isolating myself,” Jordan said when Winfrey asked where he went to “get all that nastiness” to play the Marvel supervillain.
“I spent a lot of time alone,” Jordan said. “I figured Erik [Ki-llmonger], his childhood growing up was pretty lonely. He didn’t have a lot of people he could talk to about this place called Wakanda that didn’t exist.”
Jordan said he wanted to do justice to the essence of what Ki-llmonger represents in the movie.
“Of course it’s an extreme, exaggerated version of the African diaspora from the African-American perspective, so to be able to take that kind of pain and rage and all those emotions that Erik kind of represents from being black and brown here in America … that was something I didn’t take lightly,” Jordan said.
“I didn’t have a process” for being Ki-llmonger, Jordan added, “I just did whatever I felt I needed to do or whatever I felt was right at the moment every step of the way.”
However, “I didn’t have an escape plan, either,” he confessed.
“When it was all over, I think just being in that kind of mental state … it caught up with me,” Jordan said.
When filming finished, Jordan admitted that it was difficult to go back to being himself.
“It was a little tough for me at first,” Jordan said about getting out of the mindset of his character.
“Readjusting to people caring about me, getting that love that I shut out,” he continued. “I shut out love, I didn’t want love. I wanted to be in this lonely place as long as I could.”
He said that seeing a therapist “helped me out a lot,” despite the cri-ticism men face about receiving mental health treatment.
“Your mind is so powerful.
Your mind will get your body past a threshold that it would have given up on way before,” Jordan said. “Honestly, therapy, just talking to somebody just helped me out a lot. As a man, you get a lot of slack for it. … I don’t really subscribe to that. Everyone needs to unpack and talk.”