I know that I spend too much time thinking that I am not worthy or that I am not enough but deep down I know that there is a man out there who will see how perfect I am. I know that no matter how much time I spend thinking negatively about my life, there will come a man who will show me that I was wrong the whole time. He will show me that I shouldn’t have cried that much, feeling that something was wrong with me.
He will tell me that he loves all my imperfections because they make me so perfect for him. He will love my insanity and my shitty sense of humor.
He will be my best friend and my lover, my human diary and my soulmate. He will know that I was just fine while I was without him so he will never try to complete me but he will accept me completely. That man will know that I am a little bit broken but he will never fix me. He will just hold me while I fix myself. And that will be the best gift he will ever be able to give me.
And until he comes along, I will devote myself to myself and I will selfishly take the time for me only. I won’t just wait for the right man to come along but I will work on myself, for myself. I want to be perfect once he comes along and I want him to be amazed by the woman he is dating. With him, I want to be the best version of myself but I know that I will have to work hard until I manage to do that. But I know it will pay off.
While I wait for the right one to come along, I will defeat all my fears. I will finally be someone who is proud of herself and I won’t think that I am not enough. I know that will be a long process but I am ready to go on a journey like this. And while I do all I can to make myself look good, I know that the man of my dreams will be thinking of me. I am sure that he spends nights imagining what I look like and what my lips taste like.
I know that he can’t wait to meet me, just like I can’t wait to meet him. And in the end, when destiny puts us together, I will sweep him off his feet. And you know why? Because I will be more than he could have ever imagined. I will blow his mind with my inner beauty, my charm, and my craziness when I am in love. He will be amazed by my strong spirit and he will admit to me that he has been waiting for me all these years. And when he tells me that, I will feel like I’m on cloud nine. Because the day when that happens, I will be the happiest woman alive.
I will show off my perfect match, my soulmate and my better half. The truth is that you will find the parts of me I didn’t know existed and in you, I will find the love I no longer believed was real. I will finally be the woman who will be loved by the most perfect man of all and I won’t even have to fight to get that.
And when that day comes, I will finally be whole!